Goal.

So im in need of like at least ten dollars so i can buy something ive been lookin at for a while now. the thing is though i dont have a part time job or chores to do. i plan on just working in the house this week like sweeping and trash and dishes and stuff. This makes me feel pretty cool, because im setting a goal. I plan to work to achieve it by Thursday. Also to buy my item online ive been doing offers on rewards 1 which is pretty easy. There you can do these little like 3 step surveys that dont require your cell phone or anything its free and you get points to get things like gift cards for xbox live or best buy or amazon etc. sign up under my refferal to help me out with my goal by clicking here Here. Or click the banner below. thanks and wish me luck 🙂

Thinking too much

So i have this manila folder. I carry it around at school with me. Its very important. In this folder are pages or graphs and lists and budget plans and spreadsheets with saving plans over the year of 2011. I have planned out the next year if i save a certain amount of my part time pay check ill have enough money to move out on my own and a little bit saved for college. Now im like super grounded and will be for a while so all i have is time to think, calculate and plan this awesome part of my life. i have a friend who has similar goals and with him we will achieve them and enjoy the best part of our lives. Its good to have something positive to keep ya busy when you cant hangout with friends or do anything. Its not like i get abused at my house or i have a bad childhood. My home life is fine, im blessed with parents who make enough money to buy clothes and food and pay bills. So my folks aren’t too crazy about my interests. anyway yeah so i should post more 😛

So with this positive mindset i believe i have a better look on life and how i intend to live mine. Im gonna live the life i want to live and not one full of regret, im gonna do something meaningful with my life, think for myself, and not concern myself with the consumer lifestyle others tend to get sucked into.

Been away for a while.

So i haven’t been on here in forever, so much has happened over these months well, if you know about it good for you thats enough people already. So i tried tumblr which isn’t for me :/. oh well it feels good to be back on my good ‘ol wordpress :). So i dont have much to talk about besides ive been at alternative school at lakeside for like a month and a half now and its fine. The work is easy and im gonna be back at Bolton in October. Cant wait till then, good bye for now though.

No one really knows.

Say you and i both look at the same color paint. Red. Well the color i see for red which my brain automatically identifies as “red” could be totally different for you. My blue could be similar to the shade of color you see for color our brain knows as “red”. If this is true which i cant find any proof it’s not completely messes up color preferences paintings everything for each different brain. Say you look at a landscape painting of mountains. What do you see? You see the sky tall blackish looking mountains in the background some white snow on the peaks. Now say you saw it from my perception or point of view. Your blue sky could be my purple sky. Think about how different our worlds really are from each other visually castrated like that. I’ve been thinking about this concept non stop lately. Even dreamed about it last night. So after researching this concept i came across a interesting little theory called Metaphysical Nonexistence. This theory states that pretty much only your mind is the one that exists and everything around you is generated or made up and decided by your emotions. Now absolute perception comes in as i stated above the world doesn’t look the same for everyone. Mentally insane people who hear voices are believed to be insane, is hearing voices not a new sense that could be appearing in some people. How could you prove its not? Majority’s perception is considered correct, why you may ask i have no idea. think about it. When the majority of Germany was convinced that democracy doesn’t work and Hitler rose to power. any thoughts on this particular subject? leave a comment.

Active..Mentally

So not too long ago i got into a bit of trouble, it wasn’t anything major but it it got all my electronics taken away for the weekend. So With no tv, xbox, computer, iphone, my room was like the 17th century. However i decided to get something out of it. So i totally wrote up this big not so professional or organized budget plan sort of thing i wrote on paper. Thanks to the phone book, i got the monthly rent rate for two apartments in Bartlett. With a calculator got the amount of money that plus essentials would be including the deposit, essentials being, Rent, cell phone, and Utilities. Me and my best friend could make this happen, we can suffer bad living conditions, we have back up plan after back up plan. You’d be surprised if we got kicked out of our houses before getting to finish high school, we’d be successful real quick. So in this plan it required at least 600$ a month for rent, which to pay for i got 300 a week working 5 days a week 8 hours a day at 7.50 an hour, which min wage will increase to 1.25 soon, theres 1200 a month. Thats both of us getting in those hours, and before spending anything. Now, say we just saved until we get out of high school or go for a g.e.d. then we could go to a not so great neighborhood in a bad apartment, honestly all we need is two decent beds, we can handle ourselves. When parents found this plan, they weren’t happy so now their under the impression i cant wait to move out, which would be cool to me but its not possible because i wouldn’t be able to make the money to back it all up. So i still think it was cool to come up with a plan like this, there are some apartments in millington for around 300 a month which would be awesome if we were done with school. So i thought it was cool how i did this and actually put in my idea about how much food would cost and just all the costs of it. I wonder if my brain is hyperactive, not like a.d.d. or ad.h.d. but some thing where you think a lot and over think things not so much over think them in my opinion but think them through a lot more than others do but in a good way like it doesn’t bother me and im glad i do it. And these over thinkings, and possible scenarios i play out in my head all the time are not always bad, like yes in some cases the outcomes could be negative but its not like a mental condition where its me getting killed in every situation. So maybe that is some kind of mental thing. I haven’t been sleeping well by the way, talked to mom about it and after giving me the joke of a herb melatonin, got me Advil pm which didn’t help at all i took it at about 11pm and its 3am now. so ill talk to the other parent and maybe go to a doctor, it’d be nice to have something to take to get a lot of sleep in time for school, even if i have to go to bed early so i wouldn’t be drowsy i wouldn’t mind. Since i was grounded this weekend i wasn’t able to catch Salt, with Jolie in it in theaters. Maybe next weekend. I used to write movie reviews, like actual if i didn’t like something about it i put why i didn’t like it. I might make a secondary blog dedicated to it. It would have to be like updated every weekend maybe and it’d only be new movies, id do every genre except kids. Maybe ill make money off it or get free tickets, who knows. alright i think this is enough for now, ttyl.

Cool, I’m Ready.

So  it’s July 22nd, and school for me starts on the 9th i believe, well i know i probably don’t sound like much kids my age but i feel i am so ready for school, i didn’t do great in the previous years but i think this year I’m going to go in there with a good attitude and don’t be lazy by refusing work. I’ve been practicing French this month so theres a little head start :). Also, got contacts so i can see the words on the overhead and board clearly, this was a big problem last year, even when i sat in the front. So in cooler news, i changed my operating system, well not necessarily changed but i did change it. It’s still xp service pack 3, but its totally custom and with the software i chose to pre install, which it did automatically which was nice therefore boot time is fantastic, everything is nice on it no complaints whatsoever, got all my codecs, open office, email client my im clients and ftp and irc. it’s got a bit of a vista theme to it right now ive got it all sorted out pretty much just need to add bookmarks and stuff. Heres a picture of my desktop, but beware, not sure about your system but im running my 1080p res 😀 yer so is a big image. add me on skype if you like br14n.2010 is my username. So things are good, just waiting for school to get here as ive already explained its around the corner. Yer so found the song from oceans twelve, in the beginning, call me weird or whatever if you want all i got to say is a nice fuck you, sorry to be rude but i simply don’t care whatever. This is it. It’s live so it doesnt sound as good but just Google Ornella Vanoni L’appuntamento and you’ll find it not on youtube. so im pretty much done with this post. All is well, on my way to bed while comp does a few security updates. 🙂

Busy Phone, Sleep is good!

So i was bored and a friend of mine had a list of ten thousand email addresses that were real and owned by real people and used everyday. I added them all on Facebook, I got like three hundred more friends in the past two days. However i didn’t think about when i did this that my phone is now getting text after text from Facebook and the Facebook app is going crazy because of all the accepted friend requests. My sleep schedule is now normal. I fall asleep at around 6-9pm and wake up at about 6-8am. So its nice waking up normal again. Not a lot going on at the moment. I beat gears of war on hardcore! 😀 now im playing it on insane and its taking a while. This post is a little boring but i felt like i should  make a new post anyway. As boredom ensues so does my open mindedness, ive been researching all sorts of philosophical ideas, things to live by etc. “Never ask for what you can’t give.” is one. “All Knowledge Ultimately Means Self-Knowledge” is one i agree with. Here’s one concerning religion “An atheist and a catholic man live two near identical lives. Both have families, as well as low paying jobs. Both get laid off during the large economic downfall. Due to this, he (both of them as a he.) may have to leave his family so they can further survive (he has to work abroad etc etc.)Now, both of them play the lottery. The religious man wins one day, as does the atheist. The religious man thanks god for this miracle, and the atheist blames it on sheer luck. Who was right, the atheist or the catholic?” Ask yourself that and see what your answer is. Also, I want to go to Amsterdam.

Results, plus new decisions.

So i know i haven’t updated my blog with my sleep deprivation progress, that is because i failed like 3 times by crashing after about 12 hours so i tried a third time and got to about seventeen hours and i felt so bad and messed up i just decided to forget it. I am disappointed but glad i at least got to seventeen. So each time id make it to like thirteen hours and even though i totally restarted like twice and wanted to update this with how bad i felt i thought it’d be pointless because i still have the same time so far, so i wanted to wait to twenty-four and sadly never made it to then :P. Today was pretty good its two in the afternoon, I made toast and coffee for breakfast, with corn dog from lunch :D. Watching ocean’s eleven at the moment, hope to watch the sequel after this ones over. I am extremely tired right now. I woke up at twelve in the morning last night and managed to stay up until now, sadly ive also decided to give up on the uberman schedule. I simply cannot endure this ‘shit’ feeling im constantly feeling when im not laying in bed about to sleep. I am consistently practicing French level one on Rosetta stone, to prepare for school so it will be a whole lot easier. also been dragging in some online profit. At the moment not much but neobux is reaching to the point where ill get some rented refs, and Ive been spreading adfly links to my posts on twitter which i have about 160 followers now, so that should help me out. Also been making some dummy accounts and using a bot to mass follow people who are following celebs, some will return the follow and get me traffic :). So up at the top you see a link to a page called ‘twitter’ do me a favor and click it and go follow me on twitter :D. So tonight’s sleep should be interesting to see how it goes, how long it lasts,quality of the sleep etc. So im pretty much done with this post and ill post again as soon as I awake. thanks, -brian.

Choose Your Words Carefully; 12 hour mark

It has been 12 hours since i stopped sleeping at 5pm on July third 2010. I’m feeling pretty tired, not so much sleepy as long as theres something to keep me busy and my mind doesn’t wander into day dreaming. Judging from now im pretty confident i can make it far. I haven’t had any caffeine stimulants other than a coke. So lets see how today shapes up it is independence day so i would rather enjoy myself with some fireworks and family fun. not much to say here except i feel okay, confident and plan to update this blog at each significant time mark. I dont want this blog to be consumed by a bunch of sleep stuff, after this little experiment is over i plan to just go back to uberman and keep it that way. I’d also like to address my feelings about something the president said. Ahead of a trip to Louisiana and his first televised address to the nation tomorrow, Obama said the spill – the worst environmental disaster in US history – would, like the 2001 terror attacks, continue to influence the country for decades to come. I happen to find this comparison to be pretty disrespectful. Even though it was intended to be so, I think that was completely unnecessary, simple as that. He seriously should have thought of another way to describe the impact and seriousness of the disaster instead of comparing it to a terrorist attack that claimed 3,000 innocent lives. All i have left to say about the subject is he should seriously look over his speech material before he says it and revise things he is unsure about and take into consideration the wrath of the victim’s family and criticism like this he will get in retaliation. Thats about it. Ill post later tonight unless i get extremely bored today. The full story can be found Here Happy Independence day to everyone! 🙂

Restart!

Okay well after thinking it over at about 6 a.m. today i decided to have a competition with my friend to see who can go longer with no sleep. now i decided to forget that and do it another time so im doing the lets see how long brian can go without sleep thing again. I woke up at about 5 in the afternoon today so its 12:32 a.m. so its not really interesting at the moment. I’ll just have to wait till later to update this. So theres the news this is brian signing off you’re watching CNN good night and “some stupid funny remark”.